For 3 months I have been in a strange rut. I don't really enjoy any books I'm reading--I can think of a lot that I have started but none that I have finished. The newspaper even leaves me uninspired and usually I find some little interesting nook and cranky of the newspaper that is just so interesting whether it be about GM foods, a recipe, something weird about the local area. However, I haven't found much that inspires or stimulates me in a long time. First I thought it was the nature of the times--you know, all this yabber and blabber about the recession but now there are other topics in the newspaper. I feel I've also had a creative rut. For instance, it's only the other day that I have returned to blogging and I haven't even gotten out my sewing machine to do basic mending (which always generates a feeling of accomplishment), and cooking (I do it) but it also is so boring and uninspiring.
Now--I am not depressed. In fact, if there's anything I don't find humdrum, it's my ordinary routine of a few meetings, taking the kids to school and home, helping with singing at church...........Okay, I hate grocery shopping so much these past few months that I actually have to do it more often since I go on my bike and load up quickly with the necessities that arise frequently.
I don't know....does anyone else experience this? The most exciting art forms I've engaged in of late is knitting a scarf (all one stitch, and small), finally making one bowl of hummus, and looking forward to "Lost", something that D and I have recently discovered--we are in season one. I haven't made yoghurt (I have to spell it this way now) in a bazillion years. What is up? On the other hand, I am more ahead with my Christmas shopping than ever.......Hmmm, that is definitely weird.
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Hey, Pam. I totally know what you mean. I did just finish a book, rather long one, but it wasn't really that good either. Though reading it reminding me how much I like reading and how I don't do as much as I like. And I've started a couple more and just not that interested in finishing. As a single I don't cook very often, though I enjoy it. Have made it a routine to bake a loaf of bread a week. . . usu makes me feel I accomplished something,if small. And I just finished a scarf too but haven't sorted out my next knitting project. Work is rather blah, but always different. And I am ahead on christmas shopping too though I don't enjoy shopping as much as I once did. I think it's all apart of the coming winter. And I dislike grocery shopping too--esp having to stop at more than one store. Feel like my life needs some kind of imminent change but to say just what I dunno. This is usu the part when I go on a road trip to see people. . . hope you feel inspired again soon.
yeah, I was feeling blah around Thanksgiving too...I'll go ahead and say I was depressed because that's what it felt like. Am feeling better now, no particular rhyme or reason. I second Jeannie, hope you're finding your inspiration and if not, hope you're finding a way to settle into this fallow period. I think they are sometimes necessary to our psyche, like crop rotations.
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